As part of Canadian Infertility Week I’d like to take on a sticky topic associated with infertility…. I recently read a great article from the “oh baby Magazine” Stop the Stigma: Let’s Talk. And I’m on board. Let’s stop the stigma. I have decided to write out my thoughts, feelings and experiences in hopes that someone will stumble upon the articles and get hope, get stronger, and perhaps we can stop the stigma. The M word: It’s a word I hope you never have to use. I hope you never have to experience it. I hope you never have to feel the pain, guilt and agony that comes with it. I hope you never have to cry hundreds of millions of tears over it. I hope you never lay awake in bed in the middle of the night wondering “why me?” “what did I do wrong?” “What did I do to deserve this?”. I hope you never experience the desire to hate someone else with a baby while all you feel is pain. I hope you do not spend every day of your pregnancy with it in the back of your head. I hope you do not rush to the bathroom regularly just to make sure it has not happened. I hope you never have to learn what a “rainbow baby” is. I hope you never have to leave the grocery store suddenly because tears are running down your face after looking at the perfect baby on the Huggies box. I hope you never have to tell your family and friends your horrifying story of loss. I hope you do not have to drag yourself out of bed every morning knowing your life should be so different. I hope you never have to stare at your pregnancy announcement with anger and broken dreams. I hope you do not cuddle up in a blanket and watch sad movies because all you can feel right now is sadness. I hope you never experience a Miscarriage- but if you do know you are not alone.

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